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6-23-2020 Baron


Good morning, DearHeart.

So much going on in the world.

Where is God in all this? The problem is that we live in a fallen & broken world.

You know, I tend to be guarded about sharing my deeper, personal life. Mostly because my thoughts are 99.9% on my family, and I respect their privacy…would not want to hurt them or embarrass them. Ever. I’m a processor – seldom react immediately, take it in, mull it over. It builds. When I’ve lost loved ones, I have delayed grief – when my sweet cousin was in a fatal accident 27 years ago – I went numb. Two months later, Dale and I were at restaurant in Lawton, and the grief began.

You can’t compare a human loss to a pet loss. But, equal emotions have names. Grief. Rage.

I’m raw – that Baron – our Rott was killed on our place.

That hog hunters were on the section-usually armed with night vision scopes and silencers.

I had watched Baron fight before. I know what he was capable of – especially when defending his territory – us.

The grass and weeds and around him showed signs of a massacre. He was shot, and attacked.

And, Luke had to find him like that.

What kind of evil do we live in?

I’m livid. My heart hurts.

It hurts for my son.

It hurts for the evil around us.

This world has gone crazy. It is under the control of Satan.

• Jesus referred to Satan as “the prince of the world” in John 12:31

• Paul referred to Satan as “the god of this age” (2 Corinthians 4:4) who blinds the minds of unbelievers

• Paul described Satan as “the ruler of the kingdom of the air, the spirit who is now at work in those who are disobedient.“         (Ephesians 2:2)

Pray for protection of our families & children from the evil around us.

May the events of our days remind you of the power of our God & that He will, one day, right every wrong. He will return & will banish Satan to eternal torment.

I know that time makes losses bearable – that we are overcomers:

“And God, who sees into our hearts, knows what the thought of the Spirit is; because the Spirit pleads with God on behalf of His people and in accordance with His will. We know that in all things God works for good with those who love Him, those whom He has called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:27-28 GNB

In the pain and the grief of the world – I can fight my pain, I am free to heal, but some can’t…so I can help carry their part, braid myself to those whose bodies are stolen, where mine has always been free; whose ideals can’t even be whispered, where mine have been invited…for those who use privilege like a drug-for the ones so wounded that they wound, for the the ones who squander their influence because it’s too much work to come down and meet the pain of the world… in prayer, we must gift them the Christ who already conquered their pain.

Wake up.

Gift them Christ.




It was life-changing for me.  A life-breathing gift. . . Some things in our life we are called to put down.
Throwing things down makes a statement.
Leaves a marker . . . a place in our life-story where “that used to happen, but now, this is my God-appointed response.

I love the renewing that retreats can bring.  I have some spiritual-giant girlfriends who held my hands and walked with me through a throw-down of a burden I was trying to carry.  The thing was tripping up my walk. Tripping up my relationships.  Tripping up my life.  I stayed mad, helpless and lived life out of a place of hurt and it was evident in my every action.

God placed these dear ones in a solid moving wall around me.  They took me to a wooden cross, burden written out on a piece of paper, point of nail in place over it, I nailed that festered wound in.  They hit the weight into the wood too.  With every hit, that nail drove in, sealing the weight deeper into the cross. “(bam) not yours to carry”, (bam) Father God whispered (bang), “hand it over to Me” (bam). As I realized I was trying to do the work of the Most High, He released the battle from me. Leaving me lighter, freer, whole where a gaping raw wound had made its hole a home.

It was a healing throwdown.

The thing stayed a part of me. We still deal with the effects of it today, and that experience happened 20 years ago. The difference is, since that day, it has no power.

Get this Sweetheart, there are dark parts that come into our life-tribe, and it may become a part of your life, but it does not have to have any power over you.

You choose.
Your choice.
God’s child
Do the hard work Beloved.  Put it down.

‘So the Israelites did as Joshua commanded them.  They took twelve stones from the middle of the Jordan, according to the number of the tribes of the Israelites, as the Lord had told Joshua; and they carried them over with them to their camp, where they put them down.’ (Joshua 4:8 NIV)