October 28, 2019 step behind

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Good morning, DearHeart.

I’m a slow walker.

Always trying to get ahead, but tangle when getting caught up.

A half a beat behind.

Behind.

Behind.

Hurry. Stay focused. Catch up.

Get ahead. It seems endless.

I’m over here watching butterflies. And, keep getting trapped in comparing my “comfortable clutter” living to another’s that looks better-homes-and-gardens-picture-perfect.

So, determined, I enter the outer ring with determination to get to the center – go there, get there, another place – not where I am.

Always a half a beat behind.

Beating myself up for not being

further along,

or more together,

or better able.

And, then I hear the sound of the slide.

Movement.

Forward movement punctuating progress.

Realizing the presence of moment. The ‘now-place’ where God Most High has placed me. Not too far behind. Not yet entwined in tomorrow. But, precisely in the midst of His current presence.

Here.

This moment.

Now.

A mid-course correction.

Sliding in step with His beat, not a half-step behind. Just in this place. In His presence.

Not overwhelmed with the

must-dos,

or the need-tos,

or the ought-tos.

I look down at all that I have.

Two feet. Two hands.

Punctuating on the moment…between history and tomorrow.

And, in His presence, He becomes my heartbeat.

“Oh come, let us worship and bow down; let us kneel before the Lord, our Maker!” Psalms 95:6 ESV

This beat chooses moment by moment in the still of her Savior. With the driving force of He-Is-All-I-Need.

His agenda.

Not mine.

And, in this moment, He has made me whole. Again.

His plan.

His progress.

His timing.

He has me right where I need to be.

“So I do not run aimlessly; I do not box as one beating the air.” 1 Corinthians 9:26 ESV

Wake up.

Feel your God given heartbeat. Bow down.

You’re in the center of His will.

Go.

About lewis3sunz

I am a blessed woman. Wife, daughter, mother of 3sunz, sister, author of 'Spirit Move Me: Memos to you that sway with the Holy Spirit', Jesus loving Oklahoma girl, I love exploring truth, early morning is my favorite time of day, teacher/trainer, lover of books and news and fascinated with butterflies, extreme right brained pondering creature; enjoy helping others find meaning, tap into their own inspiration and intuition to work more effectively, and overcome struggles and the rising and falling of life in the everyday grind and in small business/micro business worlds. Blessed with the crazy notion, the wild-eyed foolishness, and the madcap belief in the simple idea that I might help one to make a decision that makes a difference in the world . . . as stated by Ralph Waldo Emerson’s famous quote…“To know one life breathed easier because you lived, this is to have succeeded.” I get to use my small business background as a former owner of a Flower Shop and Hallmark Store and former co-owner of Disability Specialists, LLC, to help folks build dreams. I hold a M.Ed with emphasis on Adult Training and Education. I’d love to get my Doctorate in Educational Leadership . . . someday. My work centers on the belief that inside each of us lives a mesmerizing soul waiting to be revealed. Every day we can choose to trust the magic of our calling and take those unconventional moves to unlock an enchanted journey. I serve as Business and Industry Director and Business Development Services Coordinator at Canadian Valley Technology Center in Chickasha, Oklahoma.

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