Good morning, DearHeart.
I’m a slow walker.
Always trying to get ahead, but tangle when getting caught up.
A half a beat behind.
Behind.
Behind.
Hurry. Stay focused. Catch up.
Get ahead. It seems endless.
I’m over here watching butterflies. And, keep getting trapped in comparing my “comfortable clutter” living to another’s that looks better-homes-and-gardens-picture-perfect.
So, determined, I enter the outer ring with determination to get to the center – go there, get there, another place – not where I am.
Always a half a beat behind.
Beating myself up for not being
further along,
or more together,
or better able.
And, then I hear the sound of the slide.
Movement.
Forward movement punctuating progress.
Realizing the presence of moment. The ‘now-place’ where God Most High has placed me. Not too far behind. Not yet entwined in tomorrow. But, precisely in the midst of His current presence.
Here.
This moment.
Now.
A mid-course correction.
Sliding in step with His beat, not a half-step behind. Just in this place. In His presence.
Not overwhelmed with the
must-dos,
or the need-tos,
or the ought-tos.
I look down at all that I have.
Two feet. Two hands.
Punctuating on the moment…between history and tomorrow.
And, in His presence, He becomes my heartbeat.
“Oh come, let us worship and bow down; let us kneel before the Lord, our Maker!” Psalms 95:6 ESV
This beat chooses moment by moment in the still of her Savior. With the driving force of He-Is-All-I-Need.
His agenda.
Not mine.
And, in this moment, He has made me whole. Again.
His plan.
His progress.
His timing.
He has me right where I need to be.
“So I do not run aimlessly; I do not box as one beating the air.” 1 Corinthians 9:26 ESV
Wake up.
Feel your God given heartbeat. Bow down.
You’re in the center of His will.
Go.