Good morning, DearHeart.
The other night I had the most bizarre dream that a mom-friend and I were staying in an abandon cabin south of Carnegie fighting dinosaurs. She had to leave to go get her son, so I stayed there and kept fighting. We were not scared, we were just fighting the dinosaurs like it was an everyday, normal process.
How bizarre is that?! And, why would I dream such a thing?! I woke Dale to tell him about it – he was not as amused as I was, haha!
God has been teaching me about dreams lately, but in the most unusual of ways. He is showing me we don’t start with the dream, we start with the Dream-Giver.
Picture a bullseye.
In the center of the bullseye is God, and the assignments He has given us on a daily basis. For me, and for you, our jobs each and every day are the people and events right before us. It isn’t a mystery. There isn’t something to figure out. Who you serve and what you are “supposed” to be doing is right in front of you, with our God in the middle of it all. For me, that is my husband, my family, and the people that God continuously brings into life each day. For right now, there isn’t “something more” to discover. What I’m supposed to be doing, is what I’m already doing. “Stay the course”, He tells me.
The concentric circles, or outer circles, are what God is doing. Our hopes and dreams are in these circles. This is the place where we want to start because this is flashy and fun and glitzy to talk about. But this is not where we start. We start, in the bullseye.
God has shown me that I need to do a better job of discerning hard work from striving.
Motherhood is hard work, even when they’re grown.
Marriage is hard work.
Relationships are hard work.
Work is hard work.
Maintaining is hard work.
Some days, these are not the things I want to do because they are hard. Yet, they are the God given gifts and responsibilities that I have and ‘get’ to serve.
I get to be a wife.
I get to be a mom.
I get to go to a workplace and serve.
I get to do this work.
Staying in my bullseye with my Maker requires hard work, and I need to be ok with hard work.
Striving, on the other hand, is a struggle. It is what we do when we desperately try to bring something into fruition. Struggling looks like obsessions, distraction, and selfishness. Struggling is our attempt to do what only God can do. We struggle when we attempt to accomplish outer circle tasks on our own.
The outer circle with our hopes and dreams, like our inner bullseye target, is for and God alone. The outer circle is for Him to accomplish, or if He has already accomplished it, then it’s for Him to reveal to us in His own timing. We can’t hurry or rush or hustle enough to accomplish outer circle tasks. When we attempt to do this, though, that is called striving.
The opposite of striving, of course, is rest. And we rest most easily, in our bullseye.
“God wants us to be with Him before we do something for Him.” (Lysa TerKeurst)
All of us want to know who we are, what it is we are supposed to do with our life, and how to make this life count. But we can’t start with those things. We can’t start with us. We must start with the One who made us, and who will accomplish all of those things through us if we allow Him.
When we stay in our bullseye – in the knowledge of who God is and where He has placed us in this very moment in time – then we free ourselves from the impossible weight of trying to accomplish what isn’t ours to do. We return to our Creator and ask that He continue to remake us into the person He has made us to be.
Ephesians 2:10 says that we are “his workmanship.” So often the confusion and frustration that we feel in trying to discover “who we are,” though, is that we keep our eyes trained on ourselves. We will never discover who we are apart from Christ. When we start by learning who He is, though, we naturally start to discover who He made us to be.
“For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.” Ephesians 2:10 ESV
Stay in the bullseye with God Almighty.