Monthly Archives: June 2019

June 13, 2019 Rush Levi Lewis


Hello, DearHeart.

Today’s Facebook memory flashed up like they do – and apparently, a year ago, my writing was on prayer. Divine intervention brought it full circle to be placed back in my lap today.

God works like that. Supernaturally. In full circles.

Here’s the story this year.

Rush Levi Lewis was born yesterday.

Seven pounds, one ounce.

Twenty inches long.

4:15 pm

His ‘Gigi’, Stephanie, Holly’s mom, is a Nurse Practitioner. She’s pretty handy to have around … she is our resident-“Holly, call your mom”-medical-issue-advisor. She was with Levi and Holly all night and all day through the labor and delivery. She’s smart and she’s tough.

Stephanie, the medical professional, came to the waiting room Wednesday and told us “he’s here and they have taken him to the NICU, his breathing is very labored, he’s having to work so hard, he is really working hard …”

Then, the medical professional turned into the Gigi, and she cried.

If I cry, mehhhh, it may or may not be a thing. I cry lots. But, for her to cry … this was serious. And, we knew it.

I panic-called my mom, then

I composed a SOS text to the village: prayer warriors, family praying peeps, praying sisterhood peeps, close peeps to Levi and Holly:

“Baby is here. Trouble breathing. Took him to NICU immediately. Please pray”.

I hit SEND.

A few seconds later, deep inside, like an extra thud of a heavy heartbeat, I felt them.

Prayer Warriors.

They caught my attention … hushed me … the position of their hearts – as if their collective, praying knees rumbled in folding to the ground.

Minutes later, soul sister, T, called. She was driving. Maybe biking … speaker phone … I heard her sure voice as she skipped any pleasantries and went straight to the throne … “Ang, the God that created his inmost parts has not left him. He is with him in that incubator and within him this very moment. He is threading his tiny cells together so the membranes will mature and hold air so his lungs will operate at full capacity. He is finishing his blood cells to deliver oxygen. It will happen because Jesus’ hand is on Him. He is holding him right now to bring healing into him. He will not leave him, the same God holding you and Dale is holding him. He holds Levi and Holly. He will give him full breaths, that baby is not alone right now …”

Levi walked into the waiting room and exhaled, “they’ve just told us that he is making a really quick turn-around and if he keeps it up at this pace, he will be in the room with us within an hour.”

Within an hour.

Within an hour.

And, he was.

They brought that tiny baby into the room and put him in his mommas’ arms within an hour. Breathing fully.

Y’all, my criers-tears are dripping off my chin as I write this.

You can say that the medical staff defaulted to the side of caution, that it wasn’t really that big of a deal anyway, that he would’ve been fine if they’d just let him be.

But, any excuse made would trivialize the power of my God’s immediate response to the prayers of His children. Papaw and Gram in travail-level prayer … you and me and T and every knee that bows and declares Christ as King of Kings – that brings HIS POWER to every situation. And, one thing I know for certain, my God is not trivial in the immediate grace He delivers.

He delivers miracles every single second. Some take longer for our eyes to see than others, but He is responding immediately to every request.

Today, I’ve asked myself a thousand times, “what did I ever do to be so blessed?”

Grace. All grace.

Ask and know your miracles are being delivered even as you form the words.


June 11, 2019 reframe


Good morning, DearHeart.

Most mornings around here, the Oklahoma sunrise is soft and inviting. Mmmmm.

Soft and inviting.

Like healing words.

Unlike the sting of hurting words.

Are there any that are haunting you?

You know, you can’t solve problems with the same mindset that created them. You have to be willing to know there is another way to think about the issue.

Imagine stepping outside of your view for a moment.

Consider your thoughts.

Consider your feelings.

Now go way off in the future and look back at the scars – having overcome the hurt.

What are your thoughts there?

What could you learn?

What can you preserve from this future view and bring back to the present to help you through today’s heartbreak?

What new behaviors can you bring back to the table today?

Behaviors that help you overcome.

What if you look at this ‘issue’ … your hurt … through the eyes of God Almighty? Go inside His eyes … see the crystal clear clarity of His thoughts, fully and completely go inside His view and let Him truly untangle it and understand its help to your growth.

To your healing.

To your story.

A story that will being healing to another in your future.

Know that every hurt place is a process with a purpose that delivers you to an enhanced wisdom. Trust Him. Trust His ways.

‘There is one who speaks rashly, like a piercing sword; but the tongue of the wise brings healing.’ (Proverbs 12:18 HCSB)

Wake up.

Your wisdom is growing.

Reframe it as a purpose.


June 5, 2019


Good morning, DearHeart.

There are times I feel like I just don’t measure up. We weren’t meant to. We need each other. I’ve learned that my feeling of failing someone or failing a task … well, it always comes with a hard-stop lesson to be learned. I can’t speak for men on this, but I can speak for females … we girls can get so tangled up in the comparison game that we shut down. Can’t move. Over-analyze. Over react. And, can find we have fallen headlong into analysis paralysis. This delights Satan to no end. Because if the enemy can isolate us, then he can SO influence us. Right?

Please, someone, tell me I’m not the only one. 😳

In the late 90’s I was introduced to personality type testing, and I have been intrigued since. Any time I get to train a group for a set time, I’ve always begun with personality assessments. Personality type studies help me stay sane when life with people gets hard to handle. There are cycles of behavior with each unique personality … strengths and weaknesses … and for every weakness, when we look closely, we can find another soul close by with a strength … close enough to share life and to compensate. God thought of everything when He put us together. We are like a puzzle – we need each other to make a whole picture. In every weakness, God raises up a strength. Beautiful. What a blessing! But, when we covet the strength of another we forget His goodness. We very quickly forget our God, forget that His ways are right. As we acknowledge Him, we remember. God honors and blesses His people when we continue to recognize Him for all that He does in our lives and recognize His work in lives surrounding us. They have not been placed with us by accident. “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make straight your paths.” (Proverbs 3:5-6)

When you feel like you don’t measure up, remember that God makes straight the crooked places within us. Where our hearts are wounded, He makes us whole. As you and I open our hearts in the simplicity of rising into our unique personalities, admitting to Him that we are totally powerless in the areas of our weaknesses, His illumination redeems us. Very often, it comes through another soul close by.

May we realize the impact our influence as women has on our partners and children and those around us. You and I were not created to be perfect. We were created to share our strengths and weaknesses … to play a vital role in God’s story.

Wake up.

Share yourself.

Receive the gifts of another’s strength.


June 3, 2019 sands


Good morning, DearHeart.

We went back to the ocean last week where I heard waves crash onto the shore, delivering new sea sands then pulling away the old. Almost reluctantly at times. Always changing. Always trading the old for the new. I was speaking to a friend a few days ago and her story reminded me that any “no” from God only comes because there is a pull toward the greater “YES” at stake. Yet, in the process of getting to that “yes” fear has a way of creeping in. You know, I cannot help but wonder, if at times in life, we aren’t all a little like Joseph’s brothers … tangled up in fear over past mistakes. Do we, too, find our thoughts stuck in the sands of the “what if’s” … glancing back at life events …

-relationships we once had

-former jobs

-houses we have lived in

-cars we once owned

-opportunities we lost

-bank accounts

-positions once held

You get the point. God brings about change in our lives. He moves us forward & yet we continue to “look back”. He tells us to keep moving forward & we keep our gaze, longingly, on the world we once loved, yet for whatever journey … now we are here.

“You plotted evil against me, but God turned it into good, in order to preserve the lives of many people who are alive today because of what happened. You have nothing to fear. I will take care of you and your children.” So he reassured them with kind words that touched their hearts.” Genesis 50:20-21 GNB

Joseph comforted his people even though they wronged him, and, to banish all their fears, he spake kindly to them. Broken spirits must be bound up and encouraged. Will you see a broken spirit, today?

Can you choose to encourage those who are facing fear?

Or, an accuser?

Maybe a lost soul?

Those we love and forgive, we must not only do well for, but speak kindly to. Kind words. That’s what love does. Love creates change. It is what pulls us to the new.

Wake up.

Let love flow from you to them.

Embrace the newness of that change.