Monthly Archives: January 2019

January 31, 2019 spot joy


Good morning, DearHeart.

I praise God for His continuous refinement in my life. He often uses people to refine us. Make a quick list of ten people you are thankful for. There doesn’t have to be a reason you are thankful for them. You simply appreciate something they’ve brought in and added to your life.

There is so much suffering all around. It seems to me that one of the most thankful things you can do for someone is simply spot their joy. Find the places they light up and let them know. That’s powerful – maybe even the most powerful observation we can give – spotting someone in their joy.

Most of us don’t need more constructive criticism … or told how to fit into the box … we need to be witnessed in what is working – in the areas where we are doing something right – right there, in that place, having my joy reflected back, to be seen in that way – in the fullness of the gifts bequeathed by God, The Master-Creator .. that’s powerful affirmation of being on track.

Besides, no matter what pit or scum you may be suffering through, when you affirm another, it has a powerful B-12 like impact on you.

“So encourage each other and build each other up, just as you are already doing.”
(1 Thessalonians 5:11, NLT).

Wake up.

Fellowship & Friendship.

Community & Connection.

Friends encourage.

Spot their joy.


January 29, 2019 throngs of Angels


Good morning, DearHeart,

We are all wounded, aren’t we? Yet, your Creator planned for you to never be alone,

even when the stakes are high,

when your heart is shattered,

when your body breaks down,

when precious ones are taken from you.

You don’t know how long you will remain here. Life has invited us in for a while. Joys and hurts and all … you and I are all-in. While you remain, there is so much more going on in the heavenlies all around you than your mind can know.

God Most High’s beings are in motion. On assignment from the Commander-in-Chief. They have been charged to

move mountains

and thoughts

and attitudes

and wrong assumptions

and blow breezes of knowing into every soul along your trail. And, breezes of knowing into you.

That’s His Holy Spirit at work.

As souls cross your mind, draw a circle of light around them. Even the troubled ones. Now, fill that circle of light with a blessing for their protection and their strength. You can do it – because your own strength is being powerfully fueled by The Almighty. Yahweh.

Your healing has begun.

“He said, “Don’t worry about it—there are more on our side than on their side.” Then Elisha prayed, “O GOD, open his eyes and let him see.” The eyes of the young man were opened and he saw. A wonder! The whole mountainside full of horses and chariots of fire surrounding Elisha!” 2 Kings 6:16-17 MSG

Wake up.

Open your eyes.

Light the circles.


January 24, 2018 fruitcakes


Good morning, DearHeart.

I’m stifling a laugh and the harder I try to keep quiet the more tickled I get. Read this:

‘The Lord said to me, “Go, show your love to your wife again, though she is loved by another man and is an adulteress. Love her as the Lord loves the Israelites, though they turn to other gods and love the sacred raisin cakes.’ Hosea 3:1 (NIV)

‘sacred raisin cakes’?!

Really? Did the author have a ‘SQUIRREL’ moment? Where did that come from? It doesn’t even fit with the story! Raisin cakes! For whatever reason, this strikes me so funny!

So, looking up different commentaries – maybe it references overindulgence in wine, or cake offerings given to pagan gods or something along that line.

Or … maybe it means fruitcakes.

‘love her as the Lord loves the Israelites, and love the fruitcakes among them.’

This is a stretch, and I may be way out of line – but maybe I need to hear – ‘Ang, you’re going to run into fruitcakes. Actually, I may even send a few your way. Love them, too.’

The fact that it is “sacred” implies that these raisin cakes (fruitcakes) have a distinctive, if not divine, purpose. Perhaps God is saying to me … its okay to love others even though they do not reciprocate that exact love in return … and their behaviors represent a love for the materialistic ego-centric world that they live in …. they are in the world and part take in worldly deeds as a way to win and influence others … they are still worthy of being loved. Perhaps God is reminding me that even those who see ME as a fruitcake … well, love them, too.

Just see them and love them through Divine eyes. I’m glad our God has a sense of humor.

I’m suddenly hungry for blueberry muffins. Lol. Y’all make it a great day!

Wake up.

Love the fruitcakes.


January 23, 2019 entering


Good morning, DearHeart.

Some nights are sleepless. Mind gets cluttered with voices of other people …

questioning your judgement …

telling you to go along…

think like everyone else…

or else.

Sensing that someplace … beyond the noise … you’ll find the softness of your soul’s voice, which will lead you to unravel all the mysteries of the Milky Way. Or, at least unravel and guide you through the why’s of your own little world. You go to your knees.

There is a God who knows all about you.

Your story.

Your parents.

Your first love.

World War 2.

Your failed relationships.

Your spoiled projects.


Your quest to save your world.

In the Holy place, that same God pulls you in. He asks questions that bypass the worldly troubled voices. Those questions begin to soften the tightness you feel in your chest. The lump in your throat explodes and releases the pressure there. You let down your defenses … and once again remember that here within this place – just you and the Holy of Holies – this place is where you and He have always unlocked the most hopeless problems. You feel the fresh wind of the Holy Spirit sail through your cells stirring His creativity in your places of heartache. And, you pray you will live through this to see His hand work mightily on your behalf, for His Glory.

He hovers over your every move.

He takes the seat with you at the table. He reminds you that no problem can be solved from the same mindset that created it. So, in His Sovereignty, He is fashioning a fresh mindset.

Do you understand?

He is uncovering qualities you forgot you had.

He is retrieving your soul.

He is dusting off the the ashes of what has been burned away in you.

He is reinventing you, again.

You are so much more than you think you are.

Trust Him. Trust His ways.

“Therefore, brothers, since we have confidence to enter the holy places by the blood of Jesus…

Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for he who promised is faithful. And let us consider how to stir up one another to love and good works, not neglecting to meet together, as is the habit of some, but encouraging one another, and all the more as you see the Day drawing near.” Hebrews 10:19, 23-25 ESV

Wake up.

Enter in.

The Holy of Holies awaits.


January 22, 2019


Good morning, DearHeart.

You know, it takes dogged courage to be really alive and let ourselves be called. Crossing the battle-line of my way or His way is always laced with a riot of amplified senses and heart hammering pounding. The interesting thing is that once your press through; your growth outweighs any regret. When we cross over into eternity, there will be no regret for choosing the walk through the fire with and for God Most High.

But, here is the deal – we must move into newness where we feel weak. It nourishes us to get in over our head. It is good for you. And, for me. That is where His Spirit will take over in our desperation. Getting in too deep makes us sweat.



Put our hands up.

And, finally slosh our way in through the foggy haze to discover more of His potential in us.

It is an installation.

It’s a birth.

This is where the moments of acute awe and a shiver course all around us, pushing through us, and pour out of us.

You know what you need to do, Dearheart. Cherish that part of you that is timid. Stop saying “I shouldn’t feel this.” Know that you know that you are


closing in on the edge,

daring to move into the unknown, because that is where God’s best is waiting.

“I know all the things you do. I have seen your love, your faith, your service, and your patient endurance. And I can see your constant improvement in all these things.” Revelation 2:19 NLT

Wake up.

Keep moving.


January 18, 2018


Good morning, DearHeart.

I follow a ‘health and safety’ account on Instagram that shows workplace accidents. Often, carelessness is the cause. Someone gets hurt. Does anyone out there struggle with relationships because at some point carelessness crept in? Loaded question, right?

Struggle ONLY happens to help you. And only you can choose to enter with the Most High God to rise from it.

You have the power within you to open up the most significant relationships of your life. You see, when you are in first relationship with The Chief Soul Therapist: Jehovah Rapha, The God Who Heals You, the quest to love and forgive is precious. Even when it has traditionally been ugly.

Even when the baggage is heavy.

It can also be the hardest journey you ever walk. It requires an inner reconstruction –



drilling …

all of which feel as if they are happening physically when you are in that relationship-repair mode.

It’s a heroic journey.

It will affect every other relationship in your life.

And, guess what? For me, it always comes down to first loving the me that God loves. Go figure.
You will feel challenged all the time with those that create the most grief in your life. Learn to recognize the weaving of Satan’s scheme that’s keeping you spinning in the rapids. You want to be perfect, say the perfect things, but there’s something about dealing with our challenging peeps that is like taking LSD. You trip. Things appear and words spew sideways and people grow multiple heads. Then you drive away and wonder, “where did that come from?”

When we begin to see ourselves through our Father’s eyes, we quit making demands. While those who see themselves and others through human eyes, are like wild stallions and act as such. Some relationships are just triggers, aren’t they? The jaw sets, stomach knots, we begin foaming at the mouth when we feel their energy walk in. That can’t set the stage well. The truth is, when you are tired, emotionally. . . physically . . . you are weak . . . and don’t have it in you to be on your game and centered. So, start with love. Not feeling it? Ask God for it.
Ask the Almighty to help you try. Ask your Creator to forgive you and help you forgive yourself. Then you are ready to enter in with God Most High, and begin healing with your people.

“For I want you to know how great a struggle I have for you and for those at Laodicea and for all who have not seen me face to face, that their hearts may be encouraged, being knit together in love, to reach all the riches of full assurance of understanding and the knowledge of God’s mystery, which is Christ,” Colossians 2:1-2 ESV

It’s not complicated.

It’s not even so hard when you open your heart to it.

Wake up.

Just ask for love.

After all, it’s what people are seeking most.

Knit together in love.


January 17, 2019 yes


DearHeart …

What are you keeping yourself from by working so hard to fit in?

So perfectly predictable, so trying to stay under-the-radar to make yourself blend in, going along, instead of

gutsy and

bold and


This is my question to you: if you were “wild-yes” to the Holy Spirit, instead of careful … how would static-predictable behavior change to action that’s living with really RED pulsing blood … not merely pulsing, but spraying Christ – fountain-like, nourishing even souls and wildlife and the deepest water on earth?

Didn’t we agree…we are here to do the real work?

Didn’t we promise to take the heat in order to do it?

What is right is not always what is protocol.

What is memorable in troubled cultures such as ours is stunning soulfulness, your soul on FIRE. And, if it happens to leave us with singe around the edges, so be it. If you get your wings clipped by an ego or a lost soul here and there, let it be. But first things first.

‘But let your word ‘yes’ be ‘yes,’ and your ‘no’ be ‘no.’ Anything more than this is from the evil one.’ (Matthew 5:37 HCSB)

Full tilt.

All in.

Wake up.

Act a wild yes.

Bolder still.


January 16, 2019 suffering’s end


Good morning DearHeart.

Is it just me or has this year already dealt hard blows everywhere? So many of my friends and family and friends who are like family are taking hit after hit. And, with pain comes regret. What if’s? And, what now?

I woke up thinking about a woman who was absolutely desperate. She was done. She had been suffering with illness for so long that it became the only life she knew and it took its toll. Yet, she knew if she could just get to the Christ …

Instead of feeling regret over the “what if’s”, what would happen if we were to respond like this woman? Her “what IF” drove her to desperate measures. She was fresh out of





& ideas.

She was done.

Her “what IF” drove her to the Only One that could change her situation. She only wanted to touch the clothes of Jesus & believed she would then be healed.

Healed, as in





preserved from danger,

loss or destruction.

Those things we all want.

Her situation caused her the loss of her everyday life. She was shamed out of society because she was unclean.

She could not socialize.

She could not be with family.

She could not have a husband

or children.

She was alone.



Physical and mental pain.

And, an amazing thing happened that day….

“Immediately her bleeding stopped and she felt in her body that she was freed from her suffering.” (Mark 5:29 NIV84).

Not only did she receive healing in her body (her bleeding stopped) but she was freed from her SUFFERING. For you see, sometimes our situations cause us to feel like we are held captive. We feel hopeless. We don’t see a way out. We are in inner turmoil. We feel that our circumstances will never change or be any different. May we remember that she received a freedom that day. A relief from both the physical ailment & the mental & emotional pain she had endured. She was free.

May we be desperate for Him in the midst of our situations.

May we be driven to get out of our heads and with everything in us be pulled in and held by spirit knowing

“For those who live according to the flesh set their minds on the things of the flesh, but those who live according to the Spirit set their minds on the things of the Spirit. For to set the mind on the flesh is death, but to set the mind on the Spirit is life and peace.” (Romans 8:5-6 ESV)

“Out of the depths I cry out to you, O Lord; O Lord, hear my voice. Let your ears be attentive to my cry for mercy.” (Psalm 130:1 NIV84).

Wake up.

The end to your suffering is near.

Look for Him.

Touch Him.


January 15, 2018 healing


Good morning, DearHeart.

When I was growing up there was a song about an attitude adjustment that always made my dad laugh all

over (except when he was after Russ to give him an attitude adjustment. I don’t remember Steve or I having that effect on him – grin).

Maybe it was a Hank Williams, Jr song (?).

Sometimes our sickness comes from an attitude. Sometimes physical ailments take us out.

It is known that the first step to overcoming a problem or situation is to simply admit you have a problem.

One day, Jesus went to the pool area where crowds of sick people gathered. This Bethesda pool, had a reputation for its healing qualities. It was said that an angel would stir the waters and the first one into the pool would receive their healing.

There He talked to a man, who had been an invalid for thirty eight years.

Long years of waiting.

Failure, again and again.

Thirty eight years of doing the same thing every day. Approximately 13,870 days stuck in the same condition.

Then Jesus shows up and asks:

“Would you like to get well?” (John 5:6, NLT)

Excuse me, Jesus, I mean no disrespect … but isn’t it obvious that this man would desperately desire to be healed?

I find the man’s response interesting. He didn’t jump on the chance … no pun intended … and yell,

“YES!! please help me get well!!!!”

Instead, he tells Jesus why he has not yet received his healing …

“I have no one to help me”;

“Everyone gets there before me”;

“I’m never the first one”;

“My timing is off”;

“Poor me”.

The man’s response displayed his hopelessness, as 38 years must have felt like an eternity. But it also revealed his despair,



and even perhaps, a victim mentality.

He had lost all determination to do what was necessary to change his situation.

In reading of this man, I cannot help but wonder if the greater healing was not so much the physical healing, but a healing of the way he viewed his situation.

Could it be in asking the question, Jesus needed to confirm the man wanted change? After thirty eight years, had this man come to accept, maybe enjoy even, sitting by the pool each day with the others. He surely had accepted the idea that it was a “first come, first serve” kind of atmosphere by the pool.

Jesus came to defy that mentality, for He came to serve all.

Could it be that Jesus was asking this man about his desire to change? Was He asking the man if he was willing to do something to change his situation?

Rather than discuss the man’s response,  Jesus tells the man, “Stand up, pick up your mat, and walk!”

Jesus does not touch the man, nor lend him a hand to get up.

Jesus simply tells him what to do.

The man’s healing lay in his willingness to do what he was told.

He had to help himself up.

He had to obey.

Change may require action on our part. Even when it is hard, it is so worth it.

Wake up.

Examine your stuff.

Change your thoughts.


January 14, 2018 shame shame shame


Good morning, DearHeart.

For the past month or so I have been thinking on the various ways in which we judge people and then tack on, “this is for your growth…” as if to excuse ourselves. Fair or unfair, it’s all about the perception and perspective of the judge. There is a healthy judgement that spurs growth, and there is an attack type judgement that causes shame.

We judge others by their appearance, occupation, education, nationality, and money although we try so desperately to overlook each one of these.

In Mark 12:38-40, Jesus criticizes the teachers of the religious law for their hypocrisy. They talked out one side of their mouth while not living it out. They had forgotten the greatest commands – “Love God and love your neighbor as yourself” (my paraphrase).

They had failed to give God the worship which belonged to Him alone. They sought for the recognition to be theirs. They had also cheated the widows of their property and thereby, taking from the needy although God commands His people to be concerned with the widows.

We know that the law is good when used correctly. (1 Timothy 1:8, NLT)

“…when used correctly…”, the Law will point others to their need of a Savior. The law was not, and is not, to be used as a weapon to cause guilt or shame. The law is to be used as a mirror, reflecting any sin in our lives and leading us to Christ for forgiveness.

But, what about when it does cause shame? What do you do with that? You love back harder. It’s the only answer. Even when it is hard.

Prayer: Lord, help me to love you with all my heart first and foremost. And then, help me to love my neighbor, as You define my neighbor for me. Help me not to look in judgment upon others but through the lens of Your grace, mercy, and forgiveness. For there is no sin in anyone’s life that is worse than any sin in my own life. We are all equal at the foot of the Cross. Thank You for the gift of forgiveness which You pour out on my life every single day. Help me never to forget that I am a sinner saved by Your grace. Amen.

“For all of God’s promises have been fulfilled in Christ with a resounding “Yes!” And through Christ, our “Amen” (which means “Yes”) ascends to God for his glory.” 2 Corinthians 1:20 NLT

“And God will generously provide all you need. Then you will always have everything you need and plenty left over to share with others.” 2 Corinthians 9:8 NLT

Wake up.

Love first.

Love harder.