“He awakens Me morning by morning, He awakens My ear To hear as the learned. The Lord GOD has opened My ear; And I was not rebellious, Nor did I turn away.
For the Lord GOD will help Me; Therefore I will not be disgraced; Therefore I have set My face like a flint, And I know that I will not be ashamed.” Isaiah 50:4-5, 7 NKJV
Good morning, QuietHeart.
There are wild stories and anxious, ridiculous thoughts that you tell yourself about what could be, or might be, or probably is. Our thoughts can turn on a dime and be our brightest fuel or our worst enemy, right? Please, tell me it happens to you, too … !
Healing from run-away thoughts is hard work. It is a slow … very slow, process.
Here is the truth, Believer: filter out
-all the raging emotions,
-the to-do lists,
-and the what-if’s,
and you will find, already assigned to you, a simple space beyond chatter and clamor.
In that space is your deep-knowing:
all is well.
In the very moment you choose to lay it down, you find you are
in His love,
and in His resolve,
and you have The Sustaining Partner as your fuel.
The only fuel you need.
When we are in battle to hold everything together for ourselves … for everyone else … especially when battling for very long periods of time, the enemy has a heyday and wraps us up in an addiction of anxieties…weird and wild and self-inflicted addictions … the addiction of relentlessly trying to fix broken parts and broken people that not yours or mine to fix. (!)
But, when we choose to:
“Ang, lay it down. Set it at the foot of cross, and leave it there.” (Thanks, Dad, for that.)
Well, that’s where healing happens. Not in ways you might expect – but, in the unexpected moments that fall down all gentle-like “ah-ha, yeah, I feel what You just did there, Lord. Thank You.”
And, it has been those moments, the ones that follow that ‘lay it down’ place … I look back – and I see where all pretend fell away, and I was left raw and weeping, and healed in a place … in places … I didn’t even know were broken.
It was OK.
It is OK.
Strangely, beautifully, inexplicably, and very simply, OK.
I knew in a knowing that goes beyond words that God wouldn’t heal my heart in the way I thought He SHOULD. Instead, He was asking me to trust Him to take this thing – this awful, terrible hurting into a silent place and just be still with it. He asked me to know that He would work in the chambers of my silent space to bring my chaos places to rest if I could reach deep enough to trust Him. Yes, even here.
QuietOne, lean in. Allow your heart to awaken to the allure of His silencing presence. Give Him space to do the work that is not meant to be yours. It is His. You will find, by backing out of His battle, His Holy Spirit will be freed up to soar in you. Exactly as it is meant to be.
Back out of His battles.
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